Proud of me

Reaching beyond yourself is to find the strength to move forward so deep within you, that you reach beyond the threshold which bounds your spirit. To achieve under seemingly insurmountable odds is to reach beyond yourself, and this is ironically the place you will find yourself. You will be bent, broken and bruised, but you will come out stronger every time. The lessons you learned will continue surfacing for the rest of your life, and you will watch by in disbelief as you witness others mosey on throughout their day-to-day life, unhappy with their reality.

I couldn’t be more grateful for the life I’m living. I work hard every day to watch one foot land in front of the other, all the way to my destiny, and I am so incredibly proud of myself for getting this far. To name off one or two significant events in my life as my greatest accomplishments would be a disservice to myself. I would probably feel obligated to say that graduating college and jumping out of a plane were some of my proudest, most exhilarating moments to date. While that would be partially true, I would be equally excited to tell you that I’m proud of myself for being the glue that holds my family together, and being the first to break the generational cycle of physical and sexual abuse, addiction, poverty and neglect. I also wouldn’t leave out the part where I quit smoking cigarettes after 15 years while I was training for a bikini competition, after losing 100 lbs. Nor i would fail to mention my professional achievements.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m really proud of myself for becoming myself. My greatest accomplishment was waking up and realizing that I can have the life I choose, even if the path gets a little dicey sometimes. The life I was leading when I came to this realization didn’t resemble the one I saw in the future, so I changed it. I changed all of the things about it that I didn’t like, and it was rarely easy. In the end, every tear was accounted for, and every drop of sweat became an investment in my future.

The moment in my life when I decided I didn’t want to be like that anymore, and just… changed. That was the first day of the rest of my life! Not only has this achievement changed my perspective, but it’s helped me help others as well. The wisdom I’ve gained from a lifetime of reaching beyond myself provides honest and caring advice to struggling loved ones. I’ve become a sort of “safe haven” for those I’m closest to, and I’m thankful to be that.

“Achievement lies within the reach of those who reach beyond themselves.”

-Williams O’Hara

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